If only

It's not that I miss you or what we had
It's the thought of what was
and not really understanding
was it that good
or really that bad?

Did the light burn too bight for a short period of time
Or was there no light to speak of,
and the whole time...I was just blind?

Did you ever see me as I saw you?
Fun, funny, beautiful...
was that even you?
Did I see you or were you what I wanted
to see?

When you said you loved me
was it real?

Were you with me
 truly? 
Or just with me
 so you weren't alone?

I hate that when I look at you
I can't help but smile
I lose my breath for a short while
I feel as if I am flying.

Those things never happened to you?
At least not when you looked at me.
I don't really miss you
Just wish I could have really seen

Now I hide from anyone
who might want to fall for me
I no longer trust
I no longer hope
I want to just be
And be happy with me.

I don't want to doubt
I don't want to hurt
I don't want to believe...
Is there anyone for me?

I burned too bright towards you 
and I'm sure it was blinding.
I can no longer read your eyes
I no longer see you smiling
It's time to turn away
And stop trying.







Be heard

Let us sit and enjoy the silence
Hear the water rushing by us
to give the river
all the pain inside us
Yes, lets enjoy the silence.

Watching the leaves as they fall to the ground
Then carried away by the sound
of the wind racing
from from tree to tree
If only the wind could carry me.

Hearing the birds as they squawk to 
one another
Then something that sounds
like laughter ~
makes me shudder.
To fly through the sky
To have wings
Then I could do anything.

Lets just sit and enjoy the silence
no cars rushing by us
no phones squeaking at us
time could just be still
I could tell you how I feel.

You have to go...?
Too many calls
Too many to dos 
I am just one of too many
things you must do.

Then I'll just sit here and hear the silence.









Do you wanna?

What are you thinking?

Can you read my thoughts
Can you tell what I want from you?
Do you feel how much I want you?
I've undressed you with my eyes
and I like what I see.

Now baby, 

I wanna feel how you kiss.
The touch of your lips pressed against mine
Don't close your eyes
I've got to see
How badly you 
Want to be kissing me.

I wanna know how it tastes to touch your tongue to mine.
Part your lips and allow me to find.
That piece of you I want with mine.
Enter curious
Not reckless
Explore
Don't intrude
God, you feel good.

I wanna know how you touch
Where will you reach for to begin?
Will you take your time?
Will your lips leave mine?

I wanna know how you love
Can you have me wanting more?
Can you get me to the top
Begging you not to stop?

I wanna know~ 
You going to come to me?
Take me 
I wanna feel how you kiss.