Who am I?

I want to write something happy

I want to fill you with joy and inspiration

But, today, it wont flow.

Today the tears flow easier

Today my heart sinks low

Today I'm so confused

My brain can't even know

I think I'll stop thinking for awhile today

I think I'll stop hoping

for much today

I will sit and just be

Cause that's all I can wish to be

Today, It all makes sense

and then it doesn't.

Today, I am no one

Today I am lost

Maybe tomorrow will be better

Tomorrow someone might care

Tomorrow I might find my hope again

and write something I can share.

Today there is no finding me

I've misplace myself

I've run out of places to look

So, I'll just go and be

and maybe find 

something to bring some hope back into me.

Shall we explore?

I'm gonna ride

Who knows to where?

when?

why?

But I feel the need to fly!

Spread my wings and see where life begins.

I don't want to just be

I want to BE!

I want to see everything there is to see

Smell, touch, taste

Let nothing go to waste

Oh what fun to know

I can take me wherever I want to go

I'm pretty funny

I love to laugh

I can fit in anywhere

no one need stare.

I'm sure I will make a scene

Especially while I'm doing anything!

It's best to know not where you go

Or who you go there with

It's best to be the best on this

short list.

For you will need to be fun

Not afraid

willing to be anywhere

anytime

any moment

with anyone.

Life flies by too quickly

Lets be in front of the wind

not behind closed doors.

Only open windows on this run!

I will not follow nor look back

catch up and run

fly

dream

explore

with me!!

You weren't mine?

I hate that I had to give you back

I thought you were mine from the start

I didn't realize it wasn't me 

Who got to claim your heart.

That sucks.

I bathed you, polished you

gave you the top shelf

And now I have all this room 

to myself.

It's rather barren around here now.

No shinny fun to be distracted by

Nothing fun to pass the time

No touching

No fussing

No "what cha got going on?"

I hate the quiet

I hate not having fun

I hate the smile you took when I gave you back

I hate the thought that I can't have you with me

Why does this have to be?

I thought I was the best for you 

and you were the best for me

Not much fun to know

We aren't to be.

I don't want to give you back

But you're already gone.

Now what do I do 

To fill the time?